I am taking the man-boys to NYC for Christmas. I can’t wait! I have high expectations. Dangerous I know, but high non the less. I want the perfect picture for our Christmas card; in front of Rockefeller Plaza and the giant tree. All of us arm in arm, expressions of joy on our stubbly faces. Wait, scratch that. On their stubbly faces. ( I just spent a small fortune to have the miracle of lasers remove my occasional chin hair.) Sorry, that was probably too much information. Trying to get the perfect Christmas card is like trying to capture a picture of a unicorn while having all the laundry done….its just never going to happen. I can look at each of our Christmas cards of the past and tell you all of the drama behind each of them. You wouldn’t have known it, we looked so put together. Most of it was your typical brothers fighting and complaining about getting their picture taken, or grumbling about what I was making them wear. I remember one particular picture Cameron decided to fill his diaper while he was stacked on Carter who was stacked on Tyler..in their khaki pants and white shirts, on the beach of course. “Quit complaining and stay still, I have to get the perfect Christmas card to send to everyone so they can see how cute and charming you are.” What really amazes me is I continued taking the “perfect Christmas card” pictures even when our family was falling apart. I should have been arrested for fraud. Will this year be any different? And, who am I trying to fool anyway? We could take the perfect picture, but that’s all it will be…a picture. It won’t capture all the joys and sorrows and fears and trials that have shaped us this year. You just can’t take a perfect picture with imperfect people. Life is not a snapshot. (to steal a lyric from Josh Wilson) But at least you will get to see how cute and charming my man-boys are….imperfections and all!
Maybe, there are things you can’t see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you’ll see, you’ll see
but you’ll see the bigger picture
– JOSH WILSON